But when I thought about telling him, I was just terrified that it would ruin his life and our relationship. He's 12 years old and he means the world to me. It would kill me if he took it very badly.
And even though I know I absolutely do not want to be married to my husband anymore, I think maybe I made a mistake. While I know I could never be happily married to my husband, I know I probably won't be much happier without him, because at this age (50) it is unlikely that I will meet someone new anytime soon or at all. So is the cold comfort of living in truth and not in a sham marriage with a roommate worth the destruction of my relationship with my son and possibly his mental health?